An update

I have not posted in quite some time. I was facing a depression that lasted since December of 2004. Today I got up and felt better.

The gray kitten is still alive. He does not move much or express much personality, but he is my good friend. He is at least warm. Some days I move him from where he lies before the fireplace, and put him in the window seat. Then later, I put him back by the fireplace.

Josiel returned from Iraq. He is now missing his right arm to the shoulder, and his left arm up to the elbow. At least he was fighting for freedom. He is now on drugs, which makes me sad.

Thank you to all who make comments on my blog. I will try to post more. It is still cold and I do not have any signs of flowers yet. There still are not buds on the trees.

I am glad to be feeling better. From Sarah.

People and Cats

I am glad to say the gray kitten is doing well. I have named him Kitty after my old cat. By saying hes doing well I mean hes still breathing though he doesnt move much even when I pick him up and sit before the fire. But hopefully Kitty will stay alive for many years. Even if he doesnt have much personality.

I was sad this morning because I saw that people were commenting on my site. I did not know that people could do that as I am new to Blogging and my friend Josiel is in Iraq. Everyone seemed to be very nice except for one person. This person said

"Thanksgiving TV dinner, nummers! Not. Surely the gay kitten is rolling his eyes at this. Get a life, Toots."

All I can say is that my dinner was just fine by my standards even if I dont have a family to share it with. Also my kitten is not gay. I do not like being called Toots because its disrespectful. Even my husband who died long ago did not call me that.

Now I wonder if the kitten could be gay. I have heard about gay animals before. From Sarah.

Better

Today is Thanksgiving. Today I am thankful for the survival of the gray kitten. He is doing better. Hes not very alert but he is still breathing. I prayed and prayed last night for him and for peace in our world. I also prayed for Josiel who I have not heard from yet. For new fans of my blog Josiel is in Iraq. I also watched the parade.

Tonight I am going to have Thanksgiving dinner by myself. I used to cook and cook up a storm but now since I dont know where my family is, I make a frozen dinner. The Stouffers apple crisp is as good as mine which was delicious by all accounts. I am thankful for having a family though I haven't spoken to any of them for some time.

Now that I think of it I am not alone this Thanksgiving. I have my kitten. He is still breathing. I just checked. From Sarah.

Hard Patch

Today the fourth kitten went. Orangey was number two and then Gray 3 then Gray 1. I was very sad and buried them in the garden with all of the impatiens dead too.

Why is Winter such a hard time. I disregarded the veteranarians advice and covered Gray 4 in flea powder. He did not look good so if he goes he just goes sooner. I put a few hairs that I kept from my old dear beloved cat and put them in the basket. Im not superstitious but maybe it will help. And then I brushed and brushed and brushed the little kitten.

Times like these make me think of all the people who have passed on from my life one way or another. From Sarah.

Oh No

I drove all the way to the Wal-Mart this morning to get powder to kill all the fleas on the kittens.  One of the gray ones, there are four, is just sitting in his basket and not moving very much.  And then I ran into Gloria in the pets section.  She was a veterinarian before she retired and began selling on Ebay.  She makes a lot of money though she had a rough patch when the Beanie Babies went down in their popularity.  But she said shes in it for the long haul and things always bounce back like a metronome or pendulum.  She said to comb the fleas out as much as I can because the kittens will get anemia.

 

Gloria said not to put flea powder on the fleas because it is bad for the little systems of the kittens.  So I came home all the way home without getting anything and the gray one I mentioned was dead.  From Sarah.

A Nice Day

I am very much enjoying the company of the kittens. I have named the orange one Orangey. He is my favorite of all of the kittens. He truly stands out. That may be because he is Orange and I cant tell the others apart. I spent the day playing with them before the fire. Sometimes they misbehave, but that is okay because they are kittens.

I tried calling my son today but his phone has now been disconnected. Normally I leave a message but this time I couldnt. He never calls back anyway but so. So now I have no way to reach him. If anyone knows Daniel Pew, please tell him his mother is trying to reach him. I have not ever seen my grandson. I hope he is still alive.

The kittens seem to have fleas. I am going to get some powder to kill them. From Sarah.

I am Cold

The temperature is dropping tonight and will be around freezing for the rest of the weekend. I spent the day chopping firewood. My begonias and impatiens are long since dead. I tried bringing some impatiens inside but they died.

Josiel has now shipped to Basic Training in preparation to go to Iraq. He's very excited to be fighting for Freedom. He would ordinarily help with the wood chopping but he cant because hes no longer here. I will miss his company. I always wanted to ask him if hed like to sit before the fire but he always had so much to do.

A lady drove up in a car and I got very excited because not many people make it up this way. And she turned her car around and drove away. I thought she must just be looking around but then I saw a paper sack. You will never guess what I found inside the paper sack. Yes, five kittens. From Sarah.

I Have the Blues

It is a rainy day today. Josiel came by to help fix the corner of the counter and also prune the hydrangeas before the buds form for the winter. I did not have a blog when I hit my head on the corner of the counter so I will say that three weeks ago I slipped on a sponge and hit my head on the corner of the counter.

Josiel ships to Iraq in three weeks. I will miss him because hes been a good friend and I don't have many friends. I do not think its because I am not likable but I do think my solitude in the mountains prevents me from meeting many people. Josiel is an American dream. He worked to get his citizenship for years and he did when he was 18 just in time to go to college which was paid for by the Reserves and now hes out of school and being shipped to Iraq.

This is Josiel.

I looked at the sofa for a minute and thought I saw my cat lying there. Which could not be because she passed on four years ago. I miss her very much. Though she is dead I talk to her from time to time even so. Some nights we would sit before the fire and listen to old music on the radio and I would pat her fur for hours.

Now I listen to the talk radio. I am not an angry person but that talk radio gets me so angry about whats going on in our country. Like those liberals. I do not know any but I do not think I would like one if I met one and I have not ever met a person I did not like on sight. It takes more time than that usually for me. But I do not understand why those liberals dont want to protect America. Why do they hate freedom.

That Ann Coulter was on. I did not participate in the womens movement back then but now that we have people like Ann Coulter who speaks her mind I understand the importance of equal rights for women. She gets me very angry at people who try to hurt America.

I will miss Josiel. Once he is gone I will miss my cat even more. Sometimes a companion makes all the difference in the world. I wonder where my son is and if my grandson is even alive. From Sarah.

A Good Night

I am a retired nurse who lives a lonely life in the mountains. Some days I long for the attention and love that comes from having many friends. Unfortunately I dont have many friends or even many people I know. Winter is coming to Colorado now and some days the roads are impassible. On the bad side that means that I do not get out much in the social world. On the good side where I always try to look I spend much of the summer canning preserves and vegetables.

So I have food. But the online community helps. I also am a member of a book club. Though we have not met in many months I still have a copy of Hallelujah! The Welcome Table by Maya Angelou that I am very interested in discussing. It was my turn to lead the discussion but it was Arlines turn to host and finally the cancer took her and we have not rescheduled.

I do have a friend Josiel who's 22 and comes by to help me with some of the chores. Hes not very tall but can get a stool and help me reach things.

Josiel introduced me to the world of Blogging which is another way to reach out to my friends all over the world though I wish some of them would write back so I know someone is there. He was in the Reserves to pay for college where he studied literature and now he is going to Iraq. But he has not left yet. He is very excited.

I am very happy with the results of last nights election. I am very concerned about national security. Though I am not a terrorist if I were to enter the mind of a terrorist here is what I would think. I would think that Manhattan is a very populated area. And next time they do something terrible people wont be afraid of terrorists if they hit an area with a lot of people like a populated area.If I was a terrorist I would hit an area where there are not many people like a very unpopulated area.

Here is a map of Manhattan.

And this is where I live.

If I were a Muslim I would bomb a place like where I live. Because then the country would be very afraid and people would know they are nowhere safe. I do not like being afraid but that's the way life is now I guess. I am glad George Bush is our president. From Sarah.